THe chance that i solicited myself,that came to my door,but with its own potential flaw & "catch"...WHY?!..I wouldn't mind if its a asst pure M jobscope ,but one which could prove to be a obstacle ,and such ambiguity..argh.Chaos.

Feel like crap.FU**

It's really been awhile.Life's pretty plain,nothing too exciting probably until today.
What a day of many lasts and a defining milestone.Last paper,last day as a student and many many LASTs.Bali thai,ontime,timbre-substation,long island tea sums up the day.
1.5yrs zoomed passed just like that...and it will only get faster down the many decades down...

Many gains and losses,some
achievements,friendships,strengthen,regrets,disappointments,tough mugged,rigorious project assignements...wow..so many many to list.It's a passing phase...and probably the longest phase awaits,definitely the most critical of all, that defines my life...shall embrace it with optimism although uncertainties and unfavourable environmental conditions are still prevalent..Shall take a short break...for now.while it lasts.

Its daunting when your surroundings change faster than u can adapt and cope with.

Sometimes u feel so so...aimless.What the fish am i doing.

Lost motivation.

spiraling downwards,derailing.FU**